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No broken bones

 There is a theory that if you get halfway through adulthood and are yet to break a bone it is because you were put on this earth to receive only emotional pain. 

I feel that. As someone who has never broken a bone, I certainly have had my fair share, (plus the rest of the world's it seems), emotional pain. 

I try to think back to a point in my life where I was genuinely happy, not for a short period of time, but generally happy with day to day life. I struggle to pinpoint a time. That being realised has only added more emotional pain. 

Is this the life that was given to me? Do i have to suffer through it? 

I was told that God only gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers. 

Even soldiers got to leave the war in 1 way or another. I don't want to fight anymore. I just want to retire peacefully. Surely it's time for my battles to end? Surely I should get rewarded for surviving so many battles? 

I'm getting older, weaker, I cannot go on like this. I'm ready for peace. Contentment. Happiness. 

Surely it's my turn? 

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  1. Valleyboi17 February 2025 at 15:56

    i feel that pain, i feel like i can relate in many ways i look forward to reading more

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  2. Nobrokenbones18 February 2025 at 16:19

    There is more in motion

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    1. Valleyboi18 February 2025 at 16:26

      i hope you mean more writing and not more pain

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  3. Nobrokenbones18 February 2025 at 16:59

    I hope there's no more pain! 2 more published while I work on another.

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